Thursday, September 22, 2016

Speak For Myself

Speak For Myself

I speak for myself
That's the only person
Who's emotions
I can accurately articulate

There has never been
A person like me
And there will never
Be one in the future

No one has had
Exactly the same
Experiences as I
No one has reacted
To all of these experiences
Exactly as I had

So, as you read these ideas
Don't you dare think
That I speak for all black people
Nor all refugees
Nor every student sleeping
At the back of the lecture
Nor every young adult
Struggling to find
Work in this economy
Nor every person
Adjusting in a foreign country
Nor everyone who
Feels ostracized

I speak for myself
But the beauty of poetry
Gives me the ability
To paint emotions
And abridge a history
That many can relate to

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"



Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Ain't I A Woman (Ch. 4 of 4)

Chapter Four

Date: June 22, 2013

“This is Cameron Anderson with CNN News-”

“FUCK THE POLICE AND FUCK THE ARMY!!”

A young man shouted into the cameras. Anderson quickens his pace. He stands in front of an abandoned building. It’s a little less quiet in that location. Most of the noise is located one hundred yards away; where the police have formed a horizontal line, and the residents are clumped together shouting obscenities.

Marie Ville looks post-apocalyptic. The store windows are shattered, the streets are filled with homemade weapons; bottles used as grenades, broken baseball bats, and knives colored crimson red are some of the items found on the ground. 

And yet they continue.

“This is Cameron Anderson with CNN News. It appears there is a standoff happening with the authorities and the residents of Marie Ville. The police have encouraged the residents to stand down, and have refrained from using excessive force. The residents are aggressive. They have unheeded the army’s plea for peace and have instead taken to the streets to cause further destruction-”

   Rachel turned off the television. She had heard enough. She knew that the media was no more than a political ploy serving the interests of the privileged. She walked to the window and stared at the graffiti on the building across from the retirement home… “Fuck the police” …

She imagined a time when those words were barely whispered. A time when it was difficult to take a stand because you were afraid your legs would be broken. She imagined a time when there were very little opportunities, and the glass ceiling was made of cement. Success at that time was not even imagined. It was a time when you knew that you’d only go as far as they allowed you to; you were on a leash. You could become a maid… a nurse… or a teacher. Now they have so much opportunity.

Or at least that’s what they have them believe. They too are constrained by various social structures. A failing school system, a sighted justice system that seems to watch them vigilantly, and they were condemned to continue what seems to be an unbreakable cycle of poverty as soon as they were born. This young generation is bound for self-destruction, and it is up to them to make the change.

But it’s nice to see them fight tonight. It’s nice to see them stand for something. They are the new Freedom Riders. Hopefully they can push through the materialism in society that masks their oppression. Hopefully they can see that having an education is more important than having the new pairs of Jordans. I hope they strive for the office, rather than the spotlight of the basketball court or glimmer of the hip hop industry. It is nice to see them fight.

Tomorrow is the first march. Hundreds of students have refused to go to school, and generous teachers are excusing the absence, because they will also be there.

“I hope this is the first step”, thought Rachel. “It seems people don’t know how trapped they are until they’ve physically see an injustice occur… but all the while they constantly suffer under invisible oppression…”

“Tomorrow I will join them”, she says after a long pause. Her mind constantly wanders, she jokes that it’s due to her old age, but she’s been that way her entire life. Always thinking.

“Malvin will be leading the march tomorrow. It will give the young generation someone positive to look up to. The biggest problem with the young children is that they are led by children. They lose their father and look towards a gang full of boys for family, and male leadership. The boys in the gangs have experienced the same thing, they can bond, but none can lead. Even the O.G.’s are boys themselves, never getting over the fact that their father left them, and never fully understanding that a life on the streets is no life at all. And for the boys who are not in gangs, who are they to look to? The rappers, basketball players, and celebrities on T.V… Never realizing how slim their chances are… Never realizing that a superficial life, one with money and fame, is not worth anything. You cannot only live with money, nor can the glamour of the crazed paparazzi keep you afloat… Hopefully, Malvin shows them how to live with one another. Hopefully, he can bring them steps closer to being fully human… Being fully aware, intelligent, responsive, vocal, compassionate, moral, intuitive, and courageous. I hope to see the day when we can all be human…

    “Miss Powers, dinners ready!” Shouts the nurse from the other room.

“I’ll be there in a second”, Rachel responded.


“I should get something to eat and head to bed soon. The news will only depress me and cause me to think. And I already think far too much…”

End.

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

Ain't I A Woman (Ch.3 of 4)

Chapter Three

            Date: June 15, 2013

Police sirens. The ambulance arrives. The mayor is contemplating calling in the military. This has gone on for too long. Three days of rioting. Both Malvin and Mandek have been thrown into the spotlight, posing opposing solutions to the leaked information.

Two weeks ago, information leaked via WikiLeaks stating the hidden agenda behind the “flu shots” in November. It has been reported that many who received the shot contracted terminal illnesses. Malvin and Mandek knew that the neighborhood would not have responded well to the leaked information. The public has openly refused the compensation offered by the government, and have taken to the streets, under the leadership of Mandek Xavier.

The T.V. on the bedroom shelf plays clips from both leaders. 

Malvin attempts to appeal to the goodness of human nature when he calls for love; “The greatest of all virtues is love. Here we find the true meaning of the Christian faith and the cross… By uniting yourselves with Christ and your brothers through love you will be able to matriculate in the university of eternal life. In a world depending on force, coercive tyranny, and bloody violence, you are challenged to follow the way of love. You will then discover that unarmed love is the most powerful force in all the world” …

Mandek calls for justice, by any means necessary, “The New York Journal American, filled its front page on Wednesday with nothing but lies allegedly giving an account of what took place here last Sunday. And I very much doubt this person was here. Also, it mentioned that I attacked the other leaders, which I didn’t do. I didn’t attack anybody but the man who has been brutal to us. And it isn’t the leaders who have been brutal. They’ve been victims of brutality. They have been loving you all while you all have been hating them. So I didn’t attack them. I probably questioned their intelligence in letting you beat them without fighting back. But I don’t think we attacked them. In fact, we sent him a telegram, letting him know that if he needed any help, we’d come on the run. Does that sound like we’re attacking the leaders? No, we’re telling them that they need some help and we’ll help them. But not nonviolently…-”

Another clip interrupted Mandeks response. But this one was live. The mayor of Marie Ville stood in front of a podium surrounded by media. This must be important.

“I have declared a National Emergency in the City of Marie Ville, New Jersey. The rioting has gone on for too long, millions of dollars in property damage has occurred, and lives have been taken. We need military intervention. The residents of Marie Ville have been warned. Few chose to be compensated for the error of the medical community, and have taken to the streets to rebel. This will not continue. The military has been called in to quell the race riots. We will not allow our city to be destroyed by rebels, robbed by looters, and tainted with vigilante justice. The compensation still stands. Those who are infected will receive medical treatment, and the family of the deceased will also receive compensation. If the rioting does not end by tomorrow, much harsher measures will be taken to suppress it. Thank you very much.”

He walks away without taking any questions from the press. The proposal was not to be disputed, it was an ultimatum.


Rachel Powers turned off the television. Things are only going to get worse, she thought.  

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

Ain't I A Woman (Ch.2 of 4)

Chapter Two

“We’re here”, said the chauffer from the front seat.

Dr. Connor waited for the door to be opened, stepped out, and was shocked to see a little old woman waiting for a taxi at the front of the retirement home.

“Hello ma’am. Are you coming inside? We are giving flu shots at the retirement home today…. It’s free”, he added after a long pause. She simply stared at him.

“The word ‘free’ is not necessarily appealing to me because it’s always a conditional statement,” she began, “and poor blacks end up with the short end of the stick. What hurts black people is that they are always looking for help from the government, and they are never looking towards one another for assistance. I don’t trust the government. I had an uncle die after the Tuskegee Syphilis Experiment, and his family members were given fifteen thousand dollars in an out of court settlement. I ask you, how do you settle a life? Around twenty years ago, I heard that they were testing lead paint on children. Families were given food coupons and a free lawn if researchers were allowed to till their lawn with a sludge that contained harmful ingredients. This program was funded by the EPA and the United States Department of Housing and Urban Development…”

At this moment, Malvin Landon Prince pulled up to the front of the retirement home. He had arrived today to visit his grandmother, who was nearing the end of her life. He was a young sociologist and he sat for a moment in the parking lot to watch the confrontation between Dr. Connor and Rachel Powers. Their body language displayed the expectancy of privilege and the resistance of the oppressed. This doctor obviously thought that he could lure Miss Powers into the retirement home, but he was unaware of how stubborn she is. She had seen so much injustice in her lifetime, both the most blatant during the Civil Rights Movement, and the much subtler that occurs presently. She was standing up to him, her pencil waving in his face, “schooling him” on racial injustice and oppression- though she never made it past the sixth grade. He stood there nonchalantly. He was not intimidated, and did not seem phased.

Prince began to think, is this what is meant by reverse racism? Or is this defensive racism? Is Miss Powers racist against whites, is she too guarded, or does she initiate hate in defense of what she perceives will be an injustice? And how has the mentality of the elders trickled down to the youth. Why can black people say “nigga”, and whites can’t? Especially if the word is meant as a salutation, or acknowledgement of brotherhood. Is it defensive racism on both ends? When whites clutch their purse, isn’t it just a reaction to what they believe could be a robbery? And when blacks seem uncomfortable in a job interview, isn’t it because they believe that they will once again be overlooked – “I think far too much. I’ve been reading too much Sociology”.

He stepped out of the car, and kindly approached Miss Powers in the middle of her lecture, “If ignorance is bliss than so is privilege. How could you possibly understand our struggles in the comfort of your gated community? I dare you to spend a night in the streets, I bet-”

“Hello, Miss Powers, is my grandmother doing any better?”

Usually Miss Powers hates being interrupted, but there was something about Malvin that allows him to get away with it. He was charming, witty, intelligent, sensitive and peaceful. He always seemed to be well intentioned and always encouraged those around him to take the high road.

 “She’s been doing alright. Some day’s she’s better than on others. She’s been waiting for you. Go on inside and see her”.

“Thank you. I’ll go inside and order her favorite tea. And I’ll also help this gentleman. What’s your name? … Nice to meet you Dr. Connor, my name is Malvin. I’ll show you around. Have a wonderful day Miss Powers”.

“Thanks for the help, you’re a life saver”, Dr. Connors stated when they were out of earshot. “That was the last thing I expected coming here”.

“Not a problem”, Malvin responded with a smile.

Malvin brought Dr. Connor into the lobby and ordered him a coffee alongside the tea for his grandmother. On the nearby TV, the news showed clips of Mandek Xavier. He was the young “radical” who had been sensationalized on the media for the past few weeks.  

“I say again, I’m not anti-Democrat, I’m not anti-Republican, I’m not anti-anything. I’m just questioning their sincerity, and some of the strategy that they’ve been using on our people by promising them promises that they don’t intend to keep… its time now for you and me to become more politically more mature and realize what the ballot is for; what we’re supposed to get when we cast a ballot; and that if we don’t cast a ballot, it’s going to end up in a situation where we’re going to have to cast a bullet. It’s either a ballot or a bullet …”

“- Well, I should get to work. I’m a few minutes behind and I can’t stay too long watching this. It may make me feel guilty and oppressive because I happen to be born in a wealthy family. My grandparents were born in absolute poverty and they were able to pull themselves up. Now I have to hear all of these excuses that life is so difficult. The truth is the government doesn’t cause fathers to walk out on their children? The government doesn’t stick the needle in your arm. And the government sure as hell doesn’t make you drop out of school. Why were they able to pull themselves up, and why do they now get shit for doing it?” Dr. Connor paused, and then composed himself. “Sorry, for the rant, I should head to work. Good day. And thank you for the coffee.”
… Is this the bliss of privilege, thought Malvin.


- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

Ain't I A Woman (Ch.1 of 4)

Chapter One

Date: October 31st, 2012

“FUCK!!”

 Dr. Eugene Connor, known to many as Dr. Bull, slammed his notes on his desk and threw the nearby flask against the wall. Five weeks. That’s all he had left. He had five weeks to prove to the board that they should continue to fund his research for an AIDS cure. Thirty billion dollars had been invested thus far, and though his research has shown progress, it was not yet ready for animal testing. But it was so close. He was very close to testing on animals and he’ll make that proposal this afternoon.

They gather. Men in dark collared suits, Windsor knotted ties, drinking expensive whiskey. These men were wealthy, they are men who have always been in power, had dominance, and exhibited control. They come from a long line of influence. They gather to hear Dr. Connor’s proposal. They expect the experiment to be going just as planned. They expect no hiccups. They don’t expect Dr. Connor to ask for an extension like the last meeting. They expect those corrections to be made; they expect him to be competent. They have too much invested to consider mistakes. They have far too much to risk.

“I would like to thank you all for joining me this evening”, begins Dr. Connor. “I know for some it was quite a journey, especially those who had to pass through Hurricane Sandy. This shows you are truly committed to my research”. No laughter. They are not interested in the research as a whole, but the profits they can reap from its results. “I am sorry to inform you that I will need more time. We are very close to animal testing, and are taking all the appropriate steps to be there shortly. I encourage you to be patient with me becau-”

“How much more time?” Mr. Kennedy interrupted. He was a man who’d invested heavily in this projected. He was impressed with Dr. Connors work as an undergrad, and immediately jumped onto the bandwagon when he heard of Connors’ AIDS research.

“I can’t say for sure”, Dr. Connor responded.

“You have two weeks to show success in animal testing, and to prepare the drug to be on the market. We’ve invested too much fucking money into this and I don’t want to see this fall apart. Meeting adjourned”.

Dr. Connor was stunned. Two weeks. This was unanticipated. He needed much more time but was afraid to ask. He succumbed to the pressure of power. So much has been invested into his work, and he couldn’t possibly let them down. They have all invested in his work and had taken a great risk in doing so. And now he must show results. Two weeks. That’s all the time he had left…


Date: November 14, 2012

“Let’s skip the formalities, what are the results Dr. Connor?” Mr. Kennedy began.

“The drug is ready for the market, and I would even like to propose an idea that may seem a bit… radical. What if we were to test the drug on a small population before we put it on the market? Think about it. We’ll go to an ignored location. We’ll intentionally infect the residents, then cure them with the serum. We’re all well connected here, who’s to stop us but ourselves?”

“Where would you do this, and what would be the chances of us getting caught?”

“In Marie Ville, New Jersey. The city is a breeding ground for infection and disease so if we do anything wrong, we can simply blame it on the more than a hundred contaminated sites and polluting industries. The city has continually been used as a dumping ground for decades. I read an article that talked about this shithole. It said, ‘The sewage treatment plant was followed by a regional trash-to-steam incinerator, one of the largest in the state, and by a cogeneration power plant in the early 1990s. The DEP granted permits for these facilities despite strong community opposition and failed to adequately enforce environmental standards’. Do you think anyone would give a shit if we were to go there?”

Mr. Kennedy thought about it. “I’m still not convinced, but I don’t see any other option. And ultimately this could be a good thing. In reality, we are doing more good than harm. Imagine the millions who will be saved because of our work. Imagine the billions who will be set free from the debilitating disease of HIV because of the risk that we displace onto the residents of Marie Ville. Are we evil? Are we wrong for doing this? Have we abused our power? I don’t think so. I think we have maximized our power to do the greatest good for as many as we can. Few will suffer, yes, but many more will praise and honor us for the risk we’ve endeavored and the pain we alleviate in the future. And we have so much pressure from the government to cough up results. I would hate to disappoint them and lose all the money we’ve invested. How soon can you do this?”

The truth was that the drug wasn’t ready for the market. After the previous meeting, Dr. Connor had begun animal testing and there were few successful tests. He felt the pressure to deliver because the promise of this miracle drug was long overdue. So he lied. He told them that the drug was ready, knowing that they would take him on his word. Moreover, in order to see the drugs effect on a human population, he chose the most vulnerable location, thinking there wouldn’t be a public outcry - and definitely not a public backlash.

“I think we can present the drug under the guise of the annual flu shot. Few will look into it; we can easily bribe the officials in the city to go along with the project. We will tell them that we are researching alternatives to the flu vaccination, and have the project cleared within a week’s time”, Dr. Connor confidently stated.

They were wrong. It only took the officials in Marie Ville a day to clear the project. Dr. Connor and his team were there the following morning.

Marie Ville looked like a third world country. The juxtaposition was contradictory. How can one of the wealthiest states harbor such a demolished city? A thirty-minute drive would place you in any one of the wealthy suburbs surrounding Marie Ville. The buildings were cracked. They seemed like they were very close to toppling and it was surprising to find people still living in them. But at least they had shelter. Homelessness was rampant and there were people languishing away in the streets. Addicts desperately searched for a secluded location to indulge, and streetwalkers were not too discrete in offering services. Gangbangers threw up their gang signs and others were posted on the corners – street pharmacists. They were so young. If they’re here, then who’s in school? 

What was more eerie was the tension in the air. There was so much distrust, so much anger, hatred. It was almost palpable. The tough exterior presented by the gangsters was not only a way of protecting themselves from the dangers of the streets, but also a way of projecting their callousness onto the police who roamed the streets cautiously. The police cars crept the roads as though they were looking to commit a drive-by themselves. They peered through their sunglasses; looking for any sign of wrong doing, a suspicious handshake, anything that can potentially cause harm to others, but more importantly, themselves. The tension in the air was so taut because both parties felt they were in the right. The gangbangers found no other way to make money but to make it on the streets. They could not envision the American dream when they woke up to brown grass and metal fences as children. They were unmotivated in school because they were rarely helped by a school system that was underfunded and overlooked. A future through college? The loans alone surpassed their parent’s meager income, and the fact that their guidance counselors were flooded with students, made it difficult for them to understand the college process. And here were the police, providing another barrier to their success. 

But the police officers were well intentioned. They were there to supervise and to mediate conflict as it emerged. Sure, it’s easy to talk about police brutality in the comfort of your own home, but they face the threat of death every day. So they do anticipate a gun when the drug dealer goes in his pocket to show identification. They anticipate a gunfight whenever they encounter a rebellious resident who has “street cred”. Moreover, the media doesn’t make them any less edgy. Doesn’t rap music document life on the streets? Someone must always be committing crime, someone must always be “strapped”, and drugs are constantly being sold. Whoever heard of a rap song where someone takes the bus, walks through the park on a nice day, or takes their son to a local basketball game? The residents and police officers are bombarded with images of the flaws in the ghetto, and are overly cautious. They feel the need to always be on guard; whether it’s by posing on the corner, or by patrolling the streets with the intention to instill fear. They all want to be protected.


Dr. Connor felt the thick air of mistrust and instructed the chauffer to lock his doors. He was in a pretty expensive car and knew that he was drawing a lot of attention. Today would be the first day of the “flu shots” and he did not want to make a bad impression on the residents. He booked the local retirement home easily. They are always in need of care and he felt this would be the perfect place to begin the experiment. There are even fewer risks to consider here. Many of the people have very little time left, and even if the experiment is a failure, he’ll know what he needs to work on immediately. More importantly, if this experiment is a success, he would feel comfortable sampling a larger population and finally putting the drug on the market.

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

Saturday, September 10, 2016

Not Just Yet

Not Just Yet

He ran with a smile to greet me
Bundled and ready to brace the cold
My nephew has grown, soon he’ll be gone
But now he’s only four years old

He asks me to unlock the higher lock
Ready to go outside and play
I hesitate, he becomes impatient
Pouts and says, “I’ve waited for this all day”

I think about not letting him out
It’s far too cold out there
Too dangerous and scary
- And lonesome too
He looks up at me and stares

Want to know my biggest pet peeve?
It happens every New Year’s Eve
When there’s a fresh ground of snow
Everywhere that you go

- And no one has yet to step outdoors

The snow remains untouched, pure,
And still innocent
It’s yet to be corrupted
It has the freedom to roam
Restricted by no one
It can look to the sky
And feel right at home
-It's safe …

He looks into my eyes and sighs
Tells me to keep my promise
I let the door open wide
He runs outside
And I look towards the sky for solace

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Friday, September 9, 2016

Cry With Me ***

Cry With Me ***

I never imagined
It would feel this good
To have someone
Cry with me

To connect at
The deepest level
That of
Vulnerability

Who would've thought
You'd want to see
All that is
Wrong with me

How could I have guessed
I'm often so stressed
Many reject my humanity
And expect me at my best

Arms wrapped around
One another
Tears mingling
On the covers

As we both attempt
To uncover
Feelings we've allowed
Few to discover

After tears are shed
And kisses delivered
I'm honored that
You'll lie with me
I'm so blessed
Truly blessed
To find someone who'll
Cry with me

- K.S. Fort

From, "Dreamer: The Hopeful Romantic "



Weak

Weak

Have I gotten weaker?
What happen to
The man who bore the world?
The man who
Made everything better.

Have I lost the ability
To suppress my tears
To wear my perfect
Poker face and
Pretend to have no fear.

Am I no longer Superman?
Can I no longer save lives?
Am I no longer the inspiration?
Have I lost the idea
Towards which I've always strove?

Do you not believe in me?
Has your faith in me disappeared?
Because now you know I'm human
Would you rather
Not have me here ...

- K.S. Fort

From, "Dreamer: The Hopeful Romantic "



Wednesday, September 7, 2016

Hardships of a Hopeless Romantic

Hardships of a Hopeless Romantic

I would give it all…
And expect nothing in return
Just to see you smile
Remove the stress that’s piled
I’d spend all that I’ve earn

I’d fall so fast
Almost immediately
Then you’ll say we’re only friends
You’ll leave for him
Then come back again
Making my inflated head spin

I’m crazy for you
In love with you
But you’ll never feel the same
You’ll find someone else
One to hurt you more
And I’ll continue to try again

It never ends…

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



How Was Your Summer?

“We live life in a masquerade.”

-          T.D. Jakes

How Was Your  Summer?

How was your summer you ask me?
The question I dread in the fall
If you really cared how my summer was
Where was your text or call?

You say this to fill conversation
To escape an awkward moment
These days we live like robots
Very few live with intention

I try to be polite, I smile
I know it’s not your fault
Life is worn with friendly masks
We live life on default

I give you a quick synopsis
You pretend to pay attention
Nod, smile, then wave goodbye
“Nice seeing you”, to break the tension

Thank you for your dishonesty
I knew you wanted to be polite
Next time wave, then be on your way
Choose authenticity over being nice

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



You're Beautiful ***

You're Beautiful

You're beautiful
In the mornings
When it's hard to breath
Cause your nose is closed
Or when you look
Your best
And want to pose

You're beautiful
After you've cried
And your mascaras smeared
Or when you're
Overjoyed
And smiling from
Ear to ear

You're beautiful
As a waitress
After a long day
You're overstressed
Even when you've faced it all
And feel
Depressed

You're beautiful
On the days when
You're silly, crazy
And weird
Even on the days
When you
Share your fears

You're beautiful
With long hair
That falls
Below your knees
Or short hair that
Sways lightly
In the breeze

You're beautiful
As your hands dance
Across my face
As you share
Your dreams
As we share
Our space

You're beautiful
When you stand naked
Before me
On our romantic nights
As I analyze your
Perfekt body
Everythings all right

You're beautiful
As we
Wander lost
Trying to find our way
And make
Sense of this life
That's come our way

You're beautiful
In every way
And everyday
In everything that you do
You're absolutely perfect
I hope I'm the same
To you ....

- K.S. Fort

From, "Dreamer: The Hopeful Romantic "

Confused

Confused

"Danke."
What?
What is
Going on here?
"Oh ... Um ... Bitte."
What am I
Doing here?
Stuck ...
In a country
Where I barely
Know the language
Oh the anguish!
I feel like
Nothing can be
Accomplished
- I'm astonished...
How can I
Lose control of me
But that's easy to see
When I take
A step back
And accept
Shamelessly
That I'm
Confused ....

- K.S. Fort

From, "Dreamer: The Hopeful Romantic "



Give Me Your Virginity

Give Me Your Virginity

Give me your virginity
Because to “lose it”
Would mean I’m taking it
Give me your heart,
And all of your love
Then I’ll know you’re not faking it

Give me your virginity
I would like this time to be shared
I want you to decide
You steer the ride
And we unite as a pair

I don’t want there to be a power struggle
I want an equal investment
If you feel hesitation,
I promise I’m patient
Don’t leave with any regrets

So give me your virginity
I’d like for you to make the move
If you say it’s alright, you look in my eyes
I know we’ll have nothing to lose

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Counting the Seconds ...

March 2, 2012

Counting the Seconds…

Tick… tock… tick… tock

The time can’t move any slower
Till you arrive
Fulfill my desire
Then I’d want it to move slower

Tap… Tap… Tap… Tap

I anticipate your text
I hold my breath
Don’t know what’s next
Can’t wait for us to mix

Forever would be worth it
I wait for you
No haste for you
Rushing only hurts it

I count the seconds
Every single one
Won’t be done
Till we’re only one…

I’ll be counting the seconds…

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Nice Guys Finish Last

Nice Guys Finish Last

I think I'm just too nice for you
I don't think we'll work out
You'll complain that I'm "too soft"
Cause I listen and don’t shout

You'll tell me that I do too much
You've never had someone care
Still insecure from your past
Not expecting someone to be there

I feel like I will finish last
I know that you and him still text
You're mad at me cause I take it slow
Not pressuring you to sex

I cannot be mean to you
My heart never took the trend
Heard this before, don't be afraid to say it
"Kibbs, let’s just be friends"

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Sunday, September 4, 2016

Study Abroad

February 23, 2012

"Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable. Be honest and transparent anyway”."

  Mother Teresa

Study Abroad

If you didn’t have to go abroad
I would have held your hand…

We’re sitting at the diner table
Talking to pass time
I want to say you’re beautiful
Want to make you mine
Want to make this more romantic
But it’s not the time…

We’ll keep talking at this dinner table
But my mind begins to drift
I think about how next year
It will not be like this
You’ll be gone
I’ll miss you
Never got to kiss you
Only wishing you were here
My goodness, how I’ll miss you

If you didn’t have to go abroad
I would have held your hand
Dive deeper in our conversation
Ask to be your man…
But you have to go abroad
So I cannot show my heart
Cannot make any progress
Stop before I start
Better if I listen in
Pay attention to what you’re saying
Maybe if you were here next year
These thoughts I would be saying

If you didn’t have to go abroad
I would have held your hand…

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Kitchen Demon ( : D )

February 21, 2012

Kitchen Demon

There’s a demon in the kitchen
Who really doesn’t say much
Aside from the humming
Between the dishes that she wash

She stares at you blankly
Says she’ll be gone by ‘leven
Makes the pies and cookies too
Makes sure the bread has leavened

She doesn’t really have a name
And she’s never missed a day
“I’ll be there til eleven tonight”
That’s all she’ll ever say

If you see this demon - steer clear
No one knows her wishes
Just drop your plate in the sink
She’ll always do your dishes

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "



Spend the Night

Spend the Night

I know you have papers due
And an unfinished presentation
I know that you have a test
And you feel like times a wastin’

I know that you’re pressed for time
And I know your mind is filled
But will you let me hold you until…

Morning…

I know that you have your meetings
I know that you are stressed
I know you worry about your grades
How you did on your last test

I know that you feel pulled thin
And you struggle with all your might
But can you cuddle with me
Until we both see light

I know that you’re debating
I’ll try to win this fight
I think a touch of my lips
Will make you spend the night

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "