Nervous

Nervous

Yes, you make me nervous…

But it’s hard to explain

Whenever I’m around you

I just don’t feel the same

My hands start to sweat

And I find it hard to relax

Thoughts of love run through my mind

And other random facts

But I also fight against myself

I’ve been hurt before

A tug of war with my past

Becomes my inner chore

I know that I want to love you

But afraid to open up

I know I want to kiss you too

But know that love is rough

What if you leave like all the rest?

What makes you any different?

Will you swim when tides are hard?

Or flow with the current?

Most people flow with the current

They leave when they have the chance

My hearts not yet healed, I’m still insecure

But I want to take the chance

So you want to know why I’m nervous

I’m nervous cause I’m still afraid

To invest trust, then lose a love

And suffer through the cycle again…

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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Just Us

February 11, 2012

Just Us

I know that there’s a ball today

It’s the day of love

My texts are filled with invitations

But can tonight be… Just Us

I know today is Valentines

Everybody does

So can I spend tonight with you?

Alone so it’s… Just Us

The ball will be splendid

Our friends say it’s a must

But tonight I want to cuddle with you

Be where… It is Just Us

People cause interruptions

And I must temper my lust

But if we are alone together…

You’ll love when it’s… Just Us

This is a private courtroom

No jury for this justice

We can solve this case alone

In a bedroom with… Just Us

I know that you want to be alone

You do not pout or fuss

So let’s get a room for tonight

And make tonight… Just Us

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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If You Really Want To Hurt Me

February 7, 2012

If You Really Want To Hurt Me

If you really want to hurt me

And watch my tears fall slow

Constantly pouring down my face

A never ending flow

If you really want to hurt me

With my heart on my sleeve

If you really want to break my heart

All you have to do is leave

Many have left before

None have yet returned

So if you really want to hurt me

Go and take your journey

You said you want to hurt me

Well, what are you waiting for?

Your bags are packed, you have your things

Walk out of that door….

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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Struggle

January 30, 2012

"Do not be deceived, 'bad company corrupts good morals."

1 Corinthians 15:33

Struggle

I’m rarely ‘round negativity

Cause I fear what I’ll become

I yearn for goodness. I scare myself

My past can’t be undone...

I struggle with my sins

And I struggle to be me

I want to call Christ

But ashamed of what he’ll see

I cannot share these thoughts

I have within my mind

How I lust after these women

Women fine as wine

I try to tame my arrogance

My stubbornness is rampant

My carelessness is loose

And my mouth I won’t control it

So leave me all alone

Don’t tell me it’ll be better

Let me drown in my tears

I’ll be trapped forever

I can’t escape myself

I cannot win the war

I struggle with my flaws

What are you in here for?

You’re here to do good?

But you don’t owe me a favor

Frequently I display apathy

Christ can’t be my savior

Do you know what I do?

When others struggle under labor?

I walk past and laugh

Pretend I’ll deal with it later

I scream above

I shout His name

Why do I feel alone?

I feel so dead

But still on Earth

When will you take me home?

Then you came along to help

Your love is suffice

You show it in your actions

You embody Christ

You tell me to be quiet

You don’t hear what I’ve done

Put sandals on my feet

Welcome home the prodigal son

You show me in my troubles

And struggles that I’m in

I no longer need look up above

Because Gods love is within

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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Brilliant Minds ( : D )

Brilliant Minds

I came prepared

Ready to engage

With the brilliant minds

I expected to find

Within the walls of university

Facebook, Twitter, Instagram,

And texting above their desks

Above their desks …?

In high school

We hid our phones

Below our desks

Covering our indifference

In university

There´s more honesty

For that I can take

A relieved breath

Everyone is sitting here

Only to get the answers

To past the test

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

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Finger on the Trigger

Finger on the Trigger

I have my finger on the trigger ...

And I’m waiting …

Patiently …

Calm and still …

My target fidgets.

My opponents shake.

But I remain …

Still – but awake …

I have been waiting …

For a while now …

I’ve starved while they’ve feasted …

I’ve pondered while they’ve partied …

I am ready …

They laugh.

They cheer.

But know not what they celebrate.

They fight.

Over shit.

They don’t live but exist.

But I have had …

My finger on the trigger …

And the target´s within sight.

- K.S. Fort

From, "The Civilized N -"

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The Last Dance

The Last Dance

The lights dim down

The moon is bright

But the night is almost done

Murmurs are the only sound

As every man finds "the one"

But I need not look too far

 For she is near to me

I look into her gorgeous eyes

And Everything I can see

I see an angel

I see perfection

As I hold her gentle hands

This is how she makes me feel

In my final dance

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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