Struggle

January 30, 2012

"Do not be deceived, 'bad company corrupts good morals."

1 Corinthians 15:33

Struggle

I’m rarely ‘round negativity

Cause I fear what I’ll become

I yearn for goodness. I scare myself

My past can’t be undone...

I struggle with my sins

And I struggle to be me

I want to call Christ

But ashamed of what he’ll see

I cannot share these thoughts

I have within my mind

How I lust after these women

Women fine as wine

I try to tame my arrogance

My stubbornness is rampant

My carelessness is loose

And my mouth I won’t control it

So leave me all alone

Don’t tell me it’ll be better

Let me drown in my tears

I’ll be trapped forever

I can’t escape myself

I cannot win the war

I struggle with my flaws

What are you in here for?

You’re here to do good?

But you don’t owe me a favor

Frequently I display apathy

Christ can’t be my savior

Do you know what I do?

When others struggle under labor?

I walk past and laugh

Pretend I’ll deal with it later

I scream above

I shout His name

Why do I feel alone?

I feel so dead

But still on Earth

When will you take me home?

Then you came along to help

Your love is suffice

You show it in your actions

You embody Christ

You tell me to be quiet

You don’t hear what I’ve done

Put sandals on my feet

Welcome home the prodigal son

You show me in my troubles

And struggles that I’m in

I no longer need look up above

Because Gods love is within

- K.S. Fort

From, "Everything : Creative Chaos "

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